Hello world. The following is from 2018.

My brothers calls for love are very loud today. A brother shared a thought that sparked a dialogue with another brother about relationships. My Husband Alex and I found ourselves guided to respond to our brothers calls for love and understanding.

My brother shares a thought, "Cost of admission into the past that is over: One split mind. One belief in the reality of an opposite sex other."

A brother responds, "There is no opposite sex for you need no substitute to fill you. Focus on the one and only relationship of value, the one with your Self. When you do, you are the Self of everyone where all is who,e in the Mind of God. Look what happened in the drama of La La Land."

Alex responds, "Two by two we walk each other home. In truth there may be no opposites other than what is and what is not, but it is in coming together in relationship and perspective that we learn to re-integrate into who and what we really are."

Our brother responds, "I focus on the one and only relationship of value, the one with yourSelf by following the leadership of Jesus. The many pursuits of looking for "the right man" we're all disasters for I have always been a free spirit from my hippy days. I eventually gradually realized that the love I was seeking was in my own heart and soul. We are One and with Jesus as the Operator guiding us back Home; He is our Beloved in charge of the Atonement. We are One Heart of the Christ Self."

Alex responds, "When one makes it there salvation to find another person to complete them then they will never find completion. It was when I was only looking for a friend that I found love with Sabrina Reyenga. We were not looking for someone to complete us to marry, we just wanted a friend to hang out with and to talk to. And to this day we have each other for just that.

It's true that the love that you were seeking is your own for once we can love and accept ourselves then we can be loved and accepted by others but that does not mean that we do not grow and expand through relationships. It doesn't have to be long term marriage, it may not even be long term, but it is in relationship with our brothers that we walk each other home two by two."

Our brother responds, "We are all unique in whom we meet. I had a revelation when I was 18 and never met a male who understood my spiritual level and thus Jesus was my Beloved which no male came close to. I have been married for 18 yrs and left him for a year 6 months ago and he still likes to argue occasionally. I enjoyed being alone for the Peace of God Is all I want and need. I tolerate him now for he does give me a lot of being alone time with fewer arguments."

My response, "Now this is some really funny shit… Talk about the blind and lonely trying to lead the blind and lonely… It seems what I wrote yesterday may be of help here today…

You must learn to accept yourself as you are and love yourself Unconditionally.

Hello world. The following is from 2018.

It seems as if my brothers are feeling the intensity of their relationships or lack thereof. Each seem to be seeking themselves in another or basing their worth and value on another. I am finding myself guided to respond to these calls for love…

A brother shares, "I need a woman so bad in my life to get out of the loser category."

My response, "Something to consider here brother is this… 23 years ago I left a very abusive relationship with my baby. Following that relationship I started dating women and found them to be just as abusive as men. At that point I found myself staying single for the next five years and working on me and learning to love myself.


Broken and battered, falling apart. 

Not even sure of where to start. 

Should I start with my broken bones? 

Or should I start with my broken home? 

A small little child precious and caring. 

Pushed aside for even daring. 

To obtain some affection. 

A measure of love. 

Feeling unwanted, lost, and alone. 

Looking for love in walls of stone. 

Giving freely of the body. 

Not understanding they are Somebody. 

Thinking by giving they shall receive. 

When all they get are more injuries. 

Some to their bodies. 

Some to their minds. 

Some to the souls. 

They leave behind. 

They don't seem to realize it is a trend. 

They keep repeating over again. 

Looking for love in all the wrong places. 

Seeing a sea of swimming faces. 

Locked deep inside is the love that they need. 

For when I love myself, then someone else can love me.

Sabrina Reyenga

Brother at the end of those five years instead of seeking a lover I sought out a friend. Someone who would accept me for me exactly as I am unconditionally. In this same way I had to be willing to accept them exactly as they are in the moment and not judge them their choices to be. When I could learn to do so with myself I could then extend that to them.

You will have to learn to love and accept yourself as you are first before anyone will be willing to accept you brother. You project out before you what you believe yourself to be. That is and will be the only thing your brothers and any future partner will be able to perceive of you. What it is you believe of yourself and what you believe yourself to be.

When you can accept and love yourself, someone else will be able to accept and love you too. Just remember, what you put out is what you will get back. Be the example of who and what it is you want to be and others will perceive this of you and choose to be as you are. Understand that in everything we are all equals and we must be able to see this equality between us. To see there is no difference between us. That no one is above or below another. There are no winners and losers here brother. That would be no more than a belief in a lie that was taught to you that you accepted as being true. It is a label that was handed to you.

Consider writing a list of everything you think you know and believe to be true about you, your brothers, and the world. Make a list of all you believe defines you. Make a list of everything you believe yourself to be. When you are done making your lists look at each item. What do each of those items listed have in common? Each are label. Each one was handed to you by someone else. Each was created by someone else. Each was defined by someone else. Each one was ACCEPTED by YOU as being TRUE.

Everything you think you know and believe in as being true and defining you was taught to you by someone else just as it had been taught to them. How do you know what you were taught is the Truth? If you are honest with yourself the answer is you don't. Like the rest of Humanity you never questioned what it is you were being taught. You blindly accepted what was handed to you as being the Truth. Everything said to you and that you read in a book was something someone else thought of and chose to believe in as being true. It was something that was being created by that being in that moment. They believed it and handed that belief to someone else who chose to accept it for themselves as being true.

This is what Humanity has been trained to do from the moment they are born into this reality. They are trained from birth to blindly accept all that is said and done as being the Truth and simply how things are done. They are taught to conform to the dictates, expectations and judgments of those around them. Consider again these judgments you keep casting upon yourself brother. Consider looking at what you think and believe here and question it for any validity in Truth. You may find like I did that everything I was taught to think and believe in was no more than a Lie used to control and manipulate me to another's will and dictates. Each was created to make me into a slave to a machine I created within my own mind made up of the beliefs in the lies I was taught to believe define me.

By the way, I have been with my Husband Alex for 18 years now. He was the friend I met after those five years. He became my best friend, lover, Husband and a Father to my son. He was everything I wanted and needed and so much more. When I stopped seeking I found a friend was given me who accepted me for me."

Another brother shared what seemed a joke yet isn't…, "A relationship between a Husband and Wife is psychological. One is psycho and the other is logical."

My response, "You will find that you balance each other. When one is going psycho the other remains calm and logical. This same thing happens in reverse. We are a ballast for each other. When we learn to allow and accept our partner as they are in the moment without judgments our partner learns to do the same. We learn to turn to each other instead of turning to those outside our relationship. We learn to become a team working with one mind and one heart with the knowing that what we choose for ourselves will impact our partner too. That in everything we must join together united in the direction and cause we would stand for. We are allowed to think, believe and perceive differently than each other. Our unique perspectives is what allows us to balance each other and be the pillar the other needs in their darkest hours. When we are able to allow and accept each other as we are in the moment without judgments we are accepting and loving each other Unconditionally. We are no longer holding onto an attachment that this is how I must be loved. We learn to accept what is given in the moment with understanding and appreciation for the gift that it is."

My brothers in all things you must learn to accept yourself as you are and love yourself Unconditionally. When you can do this your brothers and partners may do so to. Become the example so they may choose as you have chosen for you. No one may save you here but YOU.

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you."

Consider how you are judging your spouse for not conforming to your beliefs. Consider how you stand in judgment of them and are not willing to accept them as they are. When you see this you will also see how they mirror that energy back at you. They give you what you are giving them. If you give them recriminations and arguments that is all you will receive. What you put out is what you get back…

By the way, something else to consider here is that YOU are superimposing an image of someone else over your Husband. You are judging your Husband as not fitting an image of another man in your own mind. That is YOUR judgments in play right there. You are not and do not see the man that your Husband is before you. All you are capable of seeing is the image you keep holding up in your mind. Like an over head projector you keep laying one judgmental picture after another over the image of your Husband and then wonder why he does not look right or meet the standard you are setting. Let go your judgments and belief that he must change and become the image you think you want.

Accept him as he is. SEE him as the Holy Son of God that he is. He is perfect as he is for he is as God created him to be. He does not need to change or conform to what you think he should be. In all you have shared and stated here you show me how you have placed Jesus on a pedestal to be worshiped. You fail to recognize that JESUS was no more than a MAN. He made mistakes and had his moments of reacting in a human way. Your Husband is no different. In all things we are to focus on the message and not the messenger. You have chosen instead to simply focus on the messenger and ignore the message they bring."

Our brother responds, "Everyone is exactly like God in out true Reality and that is how I see everyone by looking past this dreamworld. I accept what is by letting go under Jesus's command being paramount and unity with others naturally follows. I am enjoying the ride for Jesus is in charge, thus living in a New World now."

My response, "I see your words brother, yet what I am experiencing underneath those words states differently. I am a psychic empath and clear open channel, a medium or conduit. As an empath I experience the pain and suffering of my brothers myself. I am able to feel the emotions attached to their words and see the meanings they have given them. I am a Spiritual Healer. All you have shared so far states the exact opposite of your last statement brother. You may lie to me, but stop lying to yourself. Be honest with yourself if you would heal this pain eating at you from within. You ache from this break with your Husband. You think you are enjoying this freedom you believed you have gained. yet it is slowly downing that all you have now you had then. What you no longer have is that companionship that was a pillar of strength in you weakest moments and the light in your darkness. Your blind judgments have closed you in a box of your own making. Making you forever lonely for none may meet the standard you have imagined within your mind."

Alex responds, "I agree with Sabrina, for who or what could possibly stand up or even close to the pedestal that you have placed Jesus on. In comparison to him everyone would be found lacking. See the Christ in each and every being you encounter including yourself and let go of your expectations and judgments of how they should or should not be."

Our brother responds, "I Am the Queen of Heaven, a title given to me by Jesus 30 years ago but knew that was so when I was 24. My life is is so unbelievable that you can't imagine how incredible the power of love is. I was meant to be with my husband for I was guided to him and he has work to do on his ego residue like everyone else. I have been on the road of purification for 50 years and I Am perfect, whole and innocent. All is forgiven and released. Amen I never made a judgement."

Alex responds, "You judge the arguments."

Our brother responds, "I am not arguing."

Alex responds, "I was talking about with your husband."

Our brother responds, "That is my husband, not me. I desire peace."

Alex responds, "We all desire peace, but we tend to judge those outside of us for taking away our peace. What you put out is what you get back, said or unsaid, for there are no idle thoughts. I find that whenever I am upset that it is me who must have a misperception and I find that if I am unable remain in a state of peace then I must have a misperception.

I keep getting reminded that there is no world outside of me which seems like an obvious irony since clearly we all see a world outside of us. However if I apply this thought that there is no world outside of me, despite what my senses tell me, and I hold the mantra that no one has or is doing anything wrong then it seems that I can keep my peace. But as soon as that tiny mad idea comes into my mind that something has gone wrong and someone is to blame then I lose my peace."

My response, "Once again you say you are healed and accept him as he is. Yet everything points to the opposite here. I can and do understand where you have been and experienced. In looking at my own experiences I am shown those things my brothers do. I have healed mental, emotional and physical abuses of rapes, molestations, beatings, diseases and being told I was imagining all that was happening to me. That I made it all up or asked to be raped and touched as that child.

I have healed all those experiences and every disease without medications or surgeries. In turning within and looking at those experiences I found how I chose to believe in what was being handed to me as defining me. I also was shown how I was taught to perceive my brothers and this reality. In choosing to look at my own choices to think and believe I found that I was in judgment and I was the one who needed to change my mind and not my brothers. As I did so I found all was as it needed to be including me."

Our brother responds, " I was at peace choosing to have time alone from someone who never read spiritual books, only Sci-fi. We are not all on the same metaphysical level in this dream that is Not Real. I am not reading your views anymore for I have better ways to spend time."

Alex responds, "LOL, and you stated that you are not judging! So much for that!"

Our brother responds, " My favorite parable for those like you two is to "Be passerby""

My response, "Now that is what my Spiritual Guides call Ego Denial. You are in your ego mind right now so are unwilling to question what you have chosen to believe…"

Alex responds, "She claims that she does not judge and yet she has judged both of us."

My response, "Exactly! As with most of Humanity she judges the messengers and does not listen to hear the message."

Blessings on your journeys my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.