Hello world. The following was written 6/29/2018.
I had a brother share where they are at on their journey. What they shared was the perspective and understanding of how they will never be good enough and will always be judged as lacking by those around them. What came through is the pain and suffering they are experiencing at this belief that they are not Worthy. What another is expressing does not define you. You are always worthy no matter what another chooses to believe.
A brother shares, "I'm always either used, replaced or forgotten. I understand that. But what I don't understand is why. I always try my hardest to make other people happy, and to mean something to them. But it never works. I'm always worth shit to everyone, every time."
My response, "Hello brother. On ones journey they will find themselves faced with a recognition that no matter what they do they do not get the validation for their existence from anyone outside of them. All they seem to receive out there in the world are judgmental recriminations that they would dare to exist. One will find themselves stepping away from those beings and the box they would place them in. They begin to see and understand how they are and have been using another's judgments of themselves as the value system they base their existence on. It is only as they begin to choose to make themselves happy that they find another's choices to be and believe no longer matter to them.
Seems as if you are now reaching this stage in the healing process. Everything comes in baby steps. Each one is a layer being peeled away. Be patient with yourself on this journey and learn to be gentle too. Recognize you are unlearning what you were taught. As each item falls away your self worth will translate to the LOVE you begin to feel for yourself regardless what another is choosing to express."
Blessings on your journeys to healing my brothers. Hugs and love. You are loved. I love you.